What It Means

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WHILST WRITING THIS BLOG.

 

Imagine just for a moment that everything around you 

Is within arms reach.

Everything you have ever dreamed of wanting.

Everything you have waited for your entire life.

What is it?

What is the ONE thing you imagine that it would be?

Now imagine, just for a moment, that you're holding it.

The ONE thing that makes your heart complete.

The ONE physical item that your heart has been longing for...

What is it?

Is it everything you have ever dreamed of wanting?

Is it everything you have waited for your entire life?

These are questions I think about on a daily basis

These are thoughts that my mind tries to comprehend

These are the words that describe what it means to "love."

I don't think there's a day that passes that I haven't read:

How are you so perfect?

How do you know all the right things to say?

Some girl is going to be lucky one day.

You should write a book.

You know, I can't help but laugh sometimes when I read that.

In the most sincere way,  it brings a smile to my heart.

Why?

Because I have somehow found what it means to "love."

If you're still reading this, thank you.

I'll now answer most of your questions. 

I don't really know "what it means" to love someone perfectly

I'm not perfect; I've made mistakes

There are things that I regret on a daily basis

but i don't let them get to me...

I know what I've done

And I know what I don't want to become

All I do know is that I've felt love

All I do know is that I enjoy love

All I do know is that I want to give someone that love...

Relationships?

I've been in two.

Well, three.

I should actually count that one

Since she was the girl who taught me to play my songs on guitar

But as far as long term, we'll stick to two.

First Relationship: You learn.

Second Relationship: You apply.

...and hopefully by the Third time, you get it all right.

So in any way does that make me "perfect?"

No, it shows that I'm human. 

You wouldn't believe it if I told you,

but i am a regular guy

There is NOTHING about me that I find to be better than anyone else at

There is NOTHING about me that makes me stand out

There is NOTHING about me that makes me into someone I am not

What I've learned, though, is that you keep on trying.

If you fall, you get back up again.

If you fail, you try again.

If you can't find the words to say, hum the song

If you can't see in the dark, trust your heart for guidance

If you can't run, you walk until you find what you're looking for

I think "love" is that smile on your face in the morning

When you wake up knowing that you have someone to love.

I think "love" is the warmth in your heart after a kiss

When all you can't wait for is the next one

I think "love" is the joy that makes you want to continue

Doing what your heart tells you to; and that's to never stop

I think "love" is walking hand in hand in the middle of a rain storm

With nothing but the thought of dancing with her in the pouring rain.

I don't really know what I'm searching for

These days haven't been what they've been before

But I do know a few things:

When I fall, I'll get back up again

When I fail, I'll try again

When I can't find the words to say, I'll hum the song

When I can't see in the dark, I'll trust my heart for guidance

When I can't run, I'll walk until I find what I'm looking for

And lastly...

When I can't sleep at night, 

I'll picture you smiling.

When I feel like there's no one out there for me,

I'll picture your hand in mine.

When I feel like there's no star to wish on,

I'll picture your eyes in the sky.

When I feel like everything is falling,

I'll picture you holding my heart in your hands.

To whomever you are out there

Just know that there's a heart big enough for the two of us

I'm not looking to get married ANY TIME soon

I hate PDA; honestly

I believe in this non-relationship term, these days, called "space."

I'm not taking you away from your friends

And I'm not leaving mine for you;

That's a selfish relationship, and I want you to be happy.

But you know what?

It's going to be a great feeling knowing that you're here.

Yeah, we're going to fight.

Yeah, we're going to yell.

Yeah, we're not going to be perfect.

...but you know what?

You'll always be my princess..

-Evan

SLIL; 365 DTJ Day 2. Fun Dates

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remember as kid, growing up,

and your grandparents would say 

"well, when i was a kid, all we needed was a rock and sticks to have fun!"

i don't know about yall, 

but unless we're talking about some hardcore game of baseball

it's hard to believe that those two small things could bring much "fun."

but as for this blog

i'm going to post some fun date ideas.

and yes, i know what you're thinking...

...guys actually know things to do?

it's true.

and i'll list some great idea's that i've used in the past.

One.

there's this amazing device called an ENO.

they list for around $75 at some outfitter stores

but i'm telling you; 

it's a great investment.

What is an ENO, you say?

God's gift to man.

it's a simple hammock

made of parachute material 

heavy duty 

comes in set sizes of regular 

and double nest (the best size for those snuggle hangs)

Applying it to a date.

two ways.

A.) if you've been dating the set person for a bit, you can pack a picnic and take her out by the water. find two trees that are about 10 feet from each other, depending on the length of the slap straps that you buy. (personally, i would go to Home Depot and just buy rope and create your own) with that being said, it's fun for casual dates, especially if you're a college kid on a budget and looking to score some "sweet points."

B.) though the double nest hammock is great for those cuddling moments, it can also be used to sit in. if this is your second or third date, you can take her out during the afternoon for a casual "hang out" sesh. NOTE: save the sunset moments for when yall are together. you never want to warn a girl off by doing the sweet stuff first. maybe i'm wrong? 

Deaux. 

surprise her by showing her that you're thrifty. 

for the girls that i've dated, i know that they've both enjoyed it 

when you do thrift store shopping.

but what to do, you say?

simple.

take $20 out of the bank

(yes, you can spare $20 for her)

and then either get change for 2 $10's

or if you want to be clever

you could always just rip in half

(don't do that though because you're now out $20)

Applying it to a date

if you're like me, you're from the south

and we've got millions of thrift stores

give her $10 and head straight to the thrift store

the key here is to see who can buy the most random things

if you're thinking that's too easy,

then spice it up a bit:

have a project that yall two want to create

while shopping by yourselves

find objects that'll lead to creating this

example.

paige was quite thrifty when it came to making things. men of America, we do not, i repeat, DO NOT use pinterest. so, naturally, we are at a disadvantage of finding things to create on our own. some good ideas for things to make/decorate would be like

a.) a chest that'll hold your memories

b.) an old chair to re-create and give to a family member

c.) a picture frame that yall could make with pictures of yall

d.) something completely random.

Three'sees

let's just keep this one simple, and easy.

find a small child that has a lemonade stand

and buy their stand

but here's the catch...

don't be cocky about it.

some girls don't like to be covered by money

and if you walk up there and start throwing out bills like it aint nothing

(feel free to donate some to me)

ha!

but do it to help a kid out

it'll show that you're more than what meets the eye

and come on,

what girl doesn't like a guy who knows how to help someone out?

Quatro

Themed Nights of The Week

Movie Monday

but have fun with it 

on the first week of the four in a month

have a 40's theme

then next week, a 50's theme

and so on

Taco Tuesday

as college kids, 

we both know what that means

make different tacos each week

as you would with the movies above

Wine Wednesday

i'm a red kind of guy

(Jacob's Creek)

buy different wines and try them out

be sure to keep to brands you've never heard of

it'll make for more fun

Thirsty Thursday

kind of like the one above

but try different restaurants bars

and their special drinks for the night

with those few ideas in mind, you can come up with your own themes for during the week when yall are either studying, or just have extra time to kill.

El Five'o <---clutch spanish right there

surprise her

go to her work and bring her favorite beverage

and/or snack

when you go to leave her work, 

leave a flower on the front of her window

with a little note that says 

"i can't wait to see you tonight!"

So for the somewhat clueless people of MERICA 

that needed some quick and simple date ideas,

 i hope that these somewhat helped!

Dear Juliet,

      It's nights like these when the stars are out just perfectly, and I cannot help but want you by my side. You know, the last time I was in that old hammock, I accidentally stepped on the inside and ripped it. It did me well for about 5 years, but like a lot of other things in life, with time it ages. I wonder if you'll be the type to never want the "highest" dates in life all the time. I hope the simple will always be good enough for you, no matter what because the simple things about you, like your smile, will always be enough for this guy. I miss you more and more everyday, and as always, I cannot wait till the day that you're mine forever. Wherever you are tonight, I hope you sleep well and just know that there's not a star that I have not wished for you on tonight. 

Yours Truly,

Evan

Surviving Love in Life; 365 Days to Juliet. Day 1

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close your eyes for a second, and just picture your heart.

what do you see? 

for some, it's an organ that's beating within a rhythm that God has set in place

for others, like me, you see your past, future, and present

regardless of what comes to mind, your heart is what's on your mind. 

but what is it exactly that brings light and truth to this simple part of your body?

what is the very thought that comes to your mind about this object?

the heart is a very fragile object. 

it can be strong enough to let another smile in

and it can be weak enough to bring you to your knees

but after it's all said and done,

the rhythm still continues throughout the hours of the day

and it keeps you alive.

isn't that amazing?

the one thing needed to keep you alive is the very thing that you depend on to lead your way

when i watch movies like The Notebook, 

i'm just reminded on what "love" actually is.

i know i've tweeted about it a lot

but there's not a day that passes by that i don't think 

"i wonder who she is..."

or

"i wonder what she's doing right now..."

whoever you are, i've thought about you everyday...and i won't lie to you; twice in my life, i thought that i had already found you. i thought i knew what love was, and wouldn't you know, both times i came up short handed. it amazes me how strong, yet how fragile, the heart is. i don't think we, as humans, will ever fully comprehend what it truly means to love someone; to wake up every morning and picture their smile or to just sit and watch the day pass by while the thought of their love just circles around you like the wind that blows through the mid afternoon sky...

love can scare you sometimes;

when you least expect it, it always seems to sneak up on you

one moment you're enjoying what they call "the single life."

and then the next moment, you're waking up every morning

to try and send the first "good morning" text for them to wake up to

i know sometimes it seems like i know the perfect things to say

or words that mean something for you at the time being

but honestly yall...

...i don't have any of this life thing figured out

as a college kid, i've got a few small things figured out:

1. never go to take a shower without grabbing a towel first

(rags are hard to dry off with)

2. put some extra cash aside for the weekends

3. make sure you call your parents at least once a week

4. there's two times to pray; when you feel like it, and when you don't

5. keep a smile on your face and your heart in the clouds

but what does this all mean..? 

i'm just as puzzled as you.

i don't consider myself different from anyone else

the only thing that i could say that sets me aside,

is that i know what "love" is.

with that being said, 

here's to you, Juliet.

i'm more than convinced that you're out there, somewhere. i've started this blog, for you, and to show other's what it truly means to "wait for that person to come along..."

i'm not perfect, and neither is anyone else

if we wait for the "perfect person" to come along...

...we're going to be quite lonely if "perfection" is looks

but...

if we're honest with ourselves, 

and we're just looking for someone that "perfectly" matches us, 

i'm convinced that there'll never be another lonely night.

here's to you, Juliet.

365 Days

365 Nights

365 Ways to Love you

365 Memories I hope to make

365 songs to write

365 letters

Dear Juliet,

           I woke up this morning to a sunrise, so I know that somewhere out there you woke up with a smile on your face. The day's have been quite long, lately; I'll admit but I am still hanging on the thought of knowing that one day, there won't be any lonely nights anymore. I'm still holding onto the thoughts of us spending our time together, in hopes of making memories that'll last a lifetime. I'm still wishing for the little moments when we're together on the couch, just watching movies, and for the nights when we're out on the town and I can smile when I point to you and say "yeah, that's my angel right there and I am the luckiest man alive to have such a love." Whoever you are, know that there hasn't been a day that's passed that I haven't thought about your smile. Whoever you are, know that there hasn't been a day that's passed that I haven't wondered about the small things, like what your favorite movie is, the color of your eyes, and the sweet serenity of your laugh, and the way your head will fit perfectly on my chest when we fall asleep at night. Whoever you are, I am still here, and Juliet, I am still waiting..

Yours truly,

Evan

a new start.

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wow..has it really been over a year since i've updated this? it's crazy to think where i was this time last year. i was about to move to Starkville and i had all these hopes and ambitions on becoming a better person; a better person with you...it's crazy to think what all can happen in a year. i know i've heard this said a million times but it really doesn't hit home until you actually look back at the past year and see where you were and realize where you are now. isn't that life though..? i mean, we live day to day in this world that tells us to love ourselves and to make the best of what we can be and then when we decide to take the reigns and move, we realize that we need another hand to help with those little moments...like when we were kids and we were just learning to walk for the first time. we reached our little arms up towards our parents, and though we couldn't talk, they knew we were saying "i can't do this without your help." they would smile at us, with love in their eyes, pick us up, and for a few brief moments...

...we were on top of the world.

i remember those nights in england back in 2009. i remember lyin in bed many nights just thinking about you and what you were doing. we had just met a couple of months of months earlier...you remember how we met? i know you do because there's not a day that it doesn't pass across my mind...i can still see it now. i was playing guitar and you just happened to come in late. you walked across the room and i swear, you stole every bit of the light. i can still see where you sat, as well. i can close my eyes and still see. even as i type this, my eyes are closed and i can feel that moment..you sat, facing me, second row from the front, third seat from the right. you were wearing a white long sleeve shirt, put your bangs down in front of your eyes, looked up, pulled your hair back, smiled at me, and in that moment i didn't know where i was, or even who i was for that...i'll never forget that moment. i know in front of all those people i probably seemed like i had officially lost all sense of life, but in that moment...

...you were the only thing on my mind

it amazes me how much time we spent together once i came back home. i fell in love with you; and not just you, but everything about you. i knew that you were the last girl i wanted to kiss, the last girl i wanted to hold, and the last girl i ever wanted to be with...they say the winter holds a soft spot for new love and that winter, i felt the greatest i had ever been in my life. i knew that in your arms, i was amazing. i knew that when you kissed me, i felt like anything was possible. i knew that when you told me you loved me, that i finally meant something to someone...we spent an amazing, almost, three years together. i loved every last second. i loved the fights, the memories, the love, and every last bit of what we had. it was real. it was genuine love that few people in this world ever find and at the age of 19, i had that; and more...there was nothing ever more real than your smile on my chest at night and your eyes when i woke up the next morning. i know what we had was real because i can never forget any last second. the world may say that love comes a couple of times in life but...

...the day i met you was the last time i ever wanted to be in love

a few months have passed since the last time i saw you. the last few weeks were a bit rough but i honestly think that was the strongest in love we'd ever been. i miss the ways that we used to send sweet little messages all the time and would call each other during class just to tell you that i love you...we were so in love together because we were so different. i was the guy with the guitar, and you were the girl with that beautiful smile. i was the guy who wrote you love songs, and you were the girl they were about. i was the guy who sent the long text messages, and you were the girl who held me like i was the last thing on earth. i was the guy who gave all of his heart, and you were the girl who guarded hers...you're right; we were different. i would travel across the world and country for you, as i did, and you were the girl who followed only her own dreams. i made sure that i was always there for you and you were the person who made sure you were keen to be where you belonged...i know why you were guarded; i knew every last thing about you, and that's why i fell so in love with you. i know every last thing about you but...

...now he'll begin to pick up where i left off

this is where i move on

there is where i pick up the pieces

this is where i find myself

this is where i find a new face

this is where i become what i once was

this is where i search for a new face

this is where i love her, just like i did for you

this is where my heart finds a new home

this is where my voice finds a new song

this is where we take different ways

this is where you'll always remember

this is where i'll always remember...

...that this was where we found love

i only ever hope the best for you

i only ever hope that you'll find happiness

i only ever hope that he'll be all you've ever wanted

i only ever hope you grow into the woman you always wanted to be

i only ever hope that that smile never leaves

i only ever hope that you'll find love...

goodbye, my lover

goodbye, my friend

you have been the one for me, Paige..

Are You Scared?

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what scares you the most?

what keeps you up at night when the moon hangs high?

what gives you hope that tomorrow, you'll wake up?

where do you run to when you've nowhere to hide?

who do you look to for guidance?

what's your biggest fear?

who's your biggest fan?

can you love if you won't let go?

who are you when no one's looking?

where is that one place you feel whole again?

do songs move you to do better than you've ever imagined?

do you hide yourself in lyrics and poems?

what makes you want to become better than what you are?

who gives you love when you feel you're at your weakest?

are you the one that shines?

are you scared to take that last step?

are you empty?

are you scared?

are you brave?

are you homesick?

are you alive?

are you, you?

do you feel you have purpose in this life?

do you stay awake at night most of the time?

what is it that you're afraid to give into?

these are questions that frequently cross my mind

normally, i'm lyin in bed at night

just lookin up at my ceiling

and for a few moments, 

if i close my eyes really tight,

i can feel you in my arms again.

these are the concerns that frequently cross my mind

normally, i'm sittin outside on the porch

just lookin up at the stars

and for a few moments,

if i close my eyes really tight,

i can feel you in my arms again.

these are the hopes that frequently cross my mind

normally, i'm drivin down an old road

just lookin at the lines up ahead

and for a few moments,

if i close my eyes really tight,

i can feel your hand in mine.

these are the dreams that frequently cross my mind

normally, i'm readin our old letters

just lookin at your hand writing on the pa(i)ge,

and for a few moments,

if i close my eyes really tight,

i can feel your hand in mine.

what am i afraid of..?

a life without you.

as always,

sayitevan

Go.

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first of all, 

i love you.

how many times in life have we been told that?

from the day we came into this world, 

love has been all around.

sure, families aren't perfect

but we learn to deal with the cards we've been handed.

but what if we settled for what others wanted,

instead of what you, yourself, would like?

what would life be like if we loved more than we fought?

what if we turned hate into love?

lets go to cliche bands like NSN and Jerzak.

was i the only one who caught them in their pity little argument?

i don't think so.

two bands who wanted to push PEACE and LOVE

and yet, as their ages show, they fought.

tell me, where's the peace and love in that?

want to know my opinion?

they're human.

and for them to have done that only shows that people aren't perfect

quite like me.

i'm not perfect by any means.

just as of today, i've given up tobacco and getting drunk

no more dip and drunken nights for this guy.

want to know why?

because of three amazing things.

1. Family.

they're what gets me through the days

i grew up with an older sister and a younger brother

being the middle child in the family honestly, sucks.

you've got to live up to the older ones potential

and then you've got to set the stepping stones for the one below you

easy?

definitely not.

2. Paige.

she's what gets me through my days

even when i've had the hardest day of my life,

i know i can always count on her to put a smile on my face

it's people like her that make the world go round

with her caring smile and her loving ways

3. Jesus.

our God, sent the savior of the world to be a servant

He sent a love that would be ripped to shreds

upon a cross for the wrong that i've done

Jesus, i love you 

and i want to give all i have for you.

my future is on a double edged line right now.

tomorrow will could be a day that will forever change my life

in more ways than one

and want to know the best part of it?

i'm completely ready for whatever happens

because i have three things that a lot of people don't have.

1. family

2. a loving and beautiful girlfriend

3. Jesus Christ, our amazing savior

so where do you find yourself right now?

are you scared of the future?

the future freaks me out (motion city soundtrack)

are you goin to sit on the sidelines because it's safe

or are you gonna suit up and take a couple of hits.

don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.

get up and go

you have so much life to live

and yet, what you're settling for is everything than what you were made for.

go love someone.

find a random stranger on the street

and tell them that you love them.

10 bucks says their reaction will be a smile.

why?

because everyone wants love

everyone wants to feel accepted and cared for

just like a child.

we all, in a way, are still loving children.

get up and go.

as always,

sayitevan

Sounds Like Life To Me

Sounds Like Life To Me

 

I knew this blog was comin, but i honestly didn't know when. 

this is my "hopes and dreams blog"

and i hope you'll continue to read along.

first of all, i didn't come from the greatest family life. but my mom did everything she could for me and my sister, and for that, i'm greatful.

but this isn't a rant about my childhood or anything like that.

it's what i want for myself.

and dangit, i want kids. haha like not now, but in a couple (7) years. 

i'm in love with the MOST BEAUTIFUL girl EVER yall.

i mean, she's like the icing on the cake

that girl that walks into a room, and everyone just stops and stares at her

because you wanna know why?

she's just that beautiful.

i'm not going to lie. my girlfriend is EVERYTHING i've ever wanted in someone

i could spend the rest of my life with her,

and i'd be quite alright.

family plans:

(my mother would kill me if she knew i was already planning this)

kids=3

i've wanted a little boy first so that he can look after his little sisters

Kellin (insert middle name here) Dial

i'm a sucker already for my two little baby girls.

i'm gonna spoil them

BUT.

the won't be wearin makeup till they're 21

and baggy shirts and shorts are a MUST

i mean,

these are my baby girls!!!

i know the boy i was and well, dang..

they've got to grow up sometime, right?

okay. okay...maybe makeup at 18 but that's the limit! haha :)

Annie Mae Dial

annie because that's a name part of Paige's family

and Mae, well, let me tell you that story.

my band name is 100thandMay(e)

it's named after my great grandmother, Beluah Mae Dial 

(Momma Dial, as we called her)

so, beautiful Annie Mae Dial

third child.

undecided on name.

Big House=wrap around porch.

i know i want it in coffee house colors

with a room that's split down the middle.

i want to set up an art area on one half of the room facing out the window

for paige because she's an amazing artist

and then on the other side, of course, all of my music stuff 

so that i can play music for her while she paints :)

dogs?

oh yeah.

i want a German Shepard named Seymour

big dogs are the way to go when you have little babies

it's like a scene where the little girl is jumpin on his back to try to ride him like a horse

and not only will my gun cabinet be intimidating, but i want my dog

to put the fear of God in some little boy

who wants to love my beautiful Annie Mae :)

not normally what you hear comin from a guy, right?

that's alright by me.

because a lot of other guys haven't loved someone as amazing as i am right now.

as always,

sayitevan