YOU'RE NOT ALONE.

YOU’RE NOT THE ONLY ONE.

(click the url before reading. music always makes me read things differently as i read..)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A167S2Sxreo

It’s the one thing I’ve feared the most in my life. Being alone. I honestly HATE HATE HATE being alone but if it’s one thing I’ve learned while I’ve been in England, it’s that I need to prepare myself for being alone for a while. I honestly had the girl of my dreams in my hands and I let her go for dreams unseen. I know that sounds horrible in every aspect available, but I did. It’s something that I don’t suggest doing. If someone loves you and truly loves you, don’t trade them away. What you think “may” be better, actually isn’t. it’s one of those times where you just have to trust yourself that what you’re comfortable in may be, at that time, the best choice.

I’ve had a lot of time to think while I’ve been in England. I’m no good when I have time to think. If you’re like me, I think of the worst possible out comes in every way. I think of the door that’s closed when I have two opened right in front of me. It’s life honestly. And it’s only at night time that I’m at my worst. I always have to have something occupying me because if I’m left to ponder my thoughts, I end up writing about a million of blogs a day. And I’m serious about this guys, write your thoughts down. It’s not healthy to keep these emotions bottled up, and if someone reads them, it helps them relate to THEIR problem and then the both of you can become happy together and know that you’re NOT THE ONLY ONE.

I get about roughly 15 emails a day on MySpace about stories from people just like me and their stories about love that was lost and love that was found. I met someone today because of her status of FaceBook and again, learned that I wasn’t the only one. Her status read “I don’t want a boyfriend,” and what she said should honestly be everyone’s cry. I don’t think we should spend our lives searching for someone to be with. If we do, we miss the peace and serenity of the world around us. We miss times with friends; and “friendships” on that note. When I first dated Brielle, life was at its’ greatest. We both had really good friends and even best friends but once we started focusing all of our time on each other, we began to lose those friendships. Let my main point about this paragraph be TO ALWAYS REMEMBER YOUR FRIENDS WHILE YOU’RE IN A RELATIONSHIP. I’ve seen 8 years of friendship be ruined over a relationship.

And guys, I’m not perfect. Please hear my heart on this. I appreciate the comments and emails I get on MySpace saying how I’m not the average guy and how other guys should be like me. That really does make me smile, but that’s not why I’m here. I’m here to help you. Each of you. I don’t want to be a musician with really good songs and then three years later, no one remembers. I want to be remembered at that guy who cared, because I do. I’m so happy to see all of my new friends, all 2,232 of them and my play count! I actually have over 20,000 plays now, and for a small town boy like me, that’s a lot by my standards! But please, I’m not perfect. I’m just here to help you with this life thing.

Have I mentioned that life here in England is beautiful? I’ve been sick now for the past two days and it’s gotten the best of me but I’m determined to go on. Wow. I have my iTunes on my Top 25 Played and guess what song comes on? Out of the 2,098 songs I have on my iTunes, “Love Story” by Taylor Swift comes on as my number 4 most played song. Want to know why? Because that’s my girls favorite artist and second favorite song. And yes, I still call her my girl even though she’s not mine because that little 5’3 girl with blonde hair and blue eyes still has my heart…

Live your lives. Please. Go out and see the world. It’s more than the town you’re living in now. And don’t try to conform to your parents lives or even your friends. It’s your life, your chapters, and your book. You hold the pen and the paper that is going to one day outline your life. When you look back, make sure it’s YOUR handwriting you see and not anyone else’s. Carpe Diem. Seize the day. It’s a love story, baby just say yes.

I miss you guys!!!

evan :)

and ps….
There’s a new song on PureVolume
Rainbow Sky

http://www.purevolume.com/100thandmay

dare4distance guys…

Sometimes I don’t have all the answers.

I wonder from day to day how I got here. Like what plans are there honestly for me? Was I to be a doctor and help save lives; was I supposed to be a mailman and deliver news to the people around the world; or was I supposed to write music and help people through that? There’s so many things in my life that I just sit and look at and wonder. “Honestly, why me?” And not ALL the time is that a bad thing. It could be good or bad.

Living in England has posed many questions and honestly, I can’t answer them. Have you ever felt like your heart was pulling in two different directions? Picture this. You’re 18, starting college, and the ONLY thing you see is a new life. New friends, new faces, new places, and new opportunities…but for some reason the “new” isn’t what you thought. You once had everything you could ever imagine and you traded it all for a bag of goodies, you know, those when you were a kid you paid like a dollar for and it had those cheap plastic toys and a couple pieces of candy? Yeah? Well that’s honestly what I did. I had everything in the world and once I saw blue skies up ahead, I jumped ship and went to nothing but more water.

I mean, I didn’t ask for this life. If it weren’t for Chad Sugg, I would have probably never picked up a guitar and started writing cheesy acoustic love songs. I owe a lot of what I do to many people. They’re influences and friends. But I find myself at 11:19 pm writing another pointless blog that probably no one will ever read but then I get an email saying “Evan, I can relate to every word I read” and it makes it all worth it. I know it seems like I post a lot of “emotional” blogs, but I for one, actually live the songs I write. I don’t try to make pretty words rhyme or say something that will make you smile, but they are honestly my life. Songs like “Always and Forever” and “The Unperfect Summer” are actual events that happened in my life. They’re my stories written in song form for you to enjoy. But when you listen to my songs, don’t think of a new MySpace profile song, but honestly think of them as a daily blog with music. They’re my life.

I had my life once. She stood about 5’2 and had blue eyes I swear she stole from the sky. There are a lot of things I wish I could take back. But if anything this journey has taught me, it’s that I’m still a boy. I’m in NO way close to being a man and that’s honestly what I need to become. I’m tired of making up excuses and lies to get my way through. If I’ve made a mistake, LIVE UP TO IT. If I’ve been caught in a lie, LIVE UP TO IT. If I’ve made mistakes, yes, I need to live up to them. It’s about time I became honest with myself. And sometimes, I don’t have all the answers but I’ve learned that sometimes it’s okay to not know everything right now. I mean, if we did, it wouldn’t be “life” right?

The simple should be hard. Life should be a pain and everyone should cry at least once a month. Harsh right? But it makes you you and honestly, that’s what’s beautiful. Live your lives and dance your dances but after the lights go out and all the fun is over, the ones that were there from the start are those who honestly care. No matter how many mistakes you make, the ones who love you are always there. Picking you up when you’re drunk off your feet and you’re slurring your words like crazy. Be a helping hand. Let others know you’re not out there to judge them but merely lending a hand. We’ve got enough violence in the world today, just turn your television on. Be a smile when no one else has one and ask yourself this. “How did we get here?” it’s a funny thought if you really think about it. well, it’s about 11:27 pm and I need to be heading to bed.

I hope in some ways these blogs can be helpful. You’re not alone, and you’ve never been. You just haven’t ever written your thoughts and words down and I promise you, once you do, everything becomes better. Holding things in is a mistake because the only way to get over something is to reach out a hand. You make do it blinded but there’s always a hand on the other side. May be on the other side of the world, but I promise, I won’t let go. I’ll be your friend. I’ll be someone you can talk to. Why? Because I care. I was given a heart of caring and it’s what I do best. I hate overrated musicians who are in it for the fame. Wait. I’m Baptist. I can’t “STAND” overrated musicians. God save the Queen. But I’ll honestly be your friend…I hope you’re having an amazing day and I guess I’ll post more when it’s late at night and can’t sleep!

I love you guys!

evan :)

PS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEW SONG NEW SONG!

ALWAYS AND FOREVER
http://www.myspace.com/100thandmay

I HATE being alone... :(

I hate being alone. I honestly do. It’s not like I NEED someone to be with, it’s just that I’d love to have someone to be with. I mean, like waking up in the morning and knowing someone’s out there that cares about you and when they wake up too, they’re thinking about you…it’s those random times when you write cheesy love songs about someone else while knowing that only they’ll get it because it has so many inside jokes in it that people just think made up a good song. It’s having random traditions you do on Friday or Saturday or even Sunday night every week on. I love having someone to talk to every night when I’m honestly about to pass out from the days work. I heard a story from a guy today about how he honestly wouldn’t know what he’d do without his girlfriend and honestly, that’s where a lot of find ourselves. We put soo much of ourselves into someone else, and we end up forgetting about our own selves. I’ve learned that “love” means that you’d do anything for the other person, even if that means you end up alone at the end of the rope. I’m a VERY jealous person. You can ask any girl I’ve dated, and yes, that’s only about 4..or 5…? Maybe? Okay, being serious, it was only 4. But still, I made a promise to each of them and still to this day, I’ve kept my word. I told them I would ALWAYS care about them, no matter what, and I still do. I guess that’s what makes me different.

There’s so many things in my life I honestly wish I could take back. There’s moments that I wish would have never happened but that’s life and you learn from your mistakes. I never understood what it meant to love about a year and a month ago, but over the time, I did. And honestly, it’s the greatest thing in the world. It can turn the worst day to smiles and can even change the clothes you wear! :) but regardless of who it’s with or what it’s for, love is all around. We were made to love and whether we chose to love or not, is our choice. I would hope that we all would love. Love someone and love the One who created you to love Him back…

I honestly hate being alone and being alone in a whole new country is probably the worst but I know I’ve got lots of people who love and care about me. Especially the Uni guys here in England. I’ve never seen such a great group of guys who honestly care…

It’s just nights like these, my past really shows. Over time, I became someone I wasn’t and I honestly strive for that old me every day. I don’t like who I’ve become. I’m not over reacting but at times, I don’t know who I am. And only the honest people will admit that. We all think we have this “life” thing figured out, and we don’t. We honestly don’t and if we did, we’d always smile. Smiles. Wow. There’s some I’d give a million dollars to see right now.

Wherever life takes you, make sure you smile along the way. Love everyone and anyone. See the world if you can. I hate being alone. It’s like the worst ever. I just like knowing I have someone to be with but if this trip has taught me ANYTHING it’s that I need to rely on Christ’s love a whole lot more than some girls. And once I fall into His perfect love, then, will I find another’s love because her love will be hidden as well in Christ’s love. I don’t know where you are, or even WHO you are, but I pray you’ll begin to hide your love in Christ, or pray you already have. I hate being alone but I know with Christ, I have all the love I’ll ever need…

I love you guys!

evan :)

a bit of homesickness

yeah..i'm a bit of homesick and honestly, the only way to get it out is to talk about it..

life in england is really amazing, i won't lie about that. there's great people here and humbled hearts and a life to pursure is around every street corner but i'm feeling a bit of homesick. i can remember as a kid cursing the town i lived in because it was probably the most boring place ever. i remember nights with dreams filled with me being in another school with new friends and new faces..and now that that dream has come true, i've begun to miss home. i miss going to church on sundays and wednesdays and seeing my friends. i miss going home every sunday night and eating a cheese/pepperoni pizza at little ceasers with a dr. pepper and a water. i miss driving to wal mart when you honestly needed nothing, but you went just to get out of this house..

there's alot in this life that i regret. there's moments i wish i could take back in life but they're what made me who i am. i miss the friends and the way you felt at home. i miss my best friend alot. and honestly, i'm so sorry for the person i became. you were the one who took me as i was and didn't care what i looked like, you only wanted to me to just love you as you were. i remember when we'd walk down the hall and just smile and say "hey!" to each other as we passed and how you'd smile back at me with those "eyes i swear you stole from the sky.." a year passed along with a few months and somehow along the way, you got away from me. i can remember countless nights staying up and crying because i knew that i screwed up. i know i became somebody i wasn't and being thousands miles away from you, i realize who i don't want to be anymore..no matter where our lives take us, even if we end up different places, i promise i'll always answer when you call..i miss you alot

i've always wondered what love was and i've not even touched to surface but if i was to say what i personally thought it was, is that no matter whatever happens to it, you'll be happy if they're happy...love is all around and i heard a great guy once say "love is free..." maybe i'll get over there. the uk is beautiful and so are the hearts that live in it. i am a bit homesick but i know that this too shall pass and tomorrow is a new day. a new chance to live the life many will never get to see. so with that in mind, i'm going to keep my head up till May 20th..when i come home, i hope to be a different person. i pray i'll never take another second in this life for granted and honestly live life to its fullest. i do miss home. i miss boring Brandon, but Brandon is home. Brandon, Mississippi. ha..it's funny. i honestly never thought i'd say that i miss that town but i do and i've learned you never know what you have till it's gone..i love you guys.

evan :)

Dear friend,
Sometimes I know the world can get you down,
Just know I'll always be around to talk about it.
And even when the night seem's darkest
And hope is far away I'll be right beside you... on that day.
No matter where our lives take us even if we end up in diffrent places
I promise I'll Always answer when you call...
And when you don't have a shoulder left to cry on,
I'll be the single thing you can rely on.
I'll promise I'll be there to catch your tears... as they fall.
Dear Friend,
I know sometimes that I have let you down,
Just know I'll always be around and workin on it.
And even when life seems the hardest and nothing feel's okay,
I'll be right beside you... on that day.
No matter where our lives take us even if we end up in diffrent places
I promise I'llAlways answer when you call...
And when you don't have a shoulder left to cry on,
I'll be the single thing you can rely on.
I'll promise I'll be there to catch your tears... as they fall.
No matter where our lives take us even if we end up in diffrent places
I promise I'llAlways answer when you call...
And when you don't have a shoulder left to cry on,
I'll be the single thing you can rely on,
I'll promise that I'll be there to catch your tears...

hello UK! :)

that was the first sight i saw as well when i entered the UK. i've never been too much of a "blogger" but living in the UK and having millions of people asking you what you're doing here has honestly been a chore..so to share with everyone what i'm doing everyday, i'm considering this an online journal. i'll post pictures from the day, as well as 100thandMay news!





so far..i've been here for almost a week and am currenly living with the Dipples. a very blessing of a family, they are. they're vegetarians and honestly, it's going well. i come from the south where we eat meat everyday and coming here to a new life, you tend to find yourself accepting anything and everything you can, kind of as a cultural agreement between yourself. it's quite cold here and despite all american ideas, i've seen the sun everyday i've been here (some days only for a moments time) it's quite cold but the people here are very welcoming. i've met some of the greatest guys ever: Luke, Swarbs, Leppi, and Tim. i've yet to meet harrison and when i do, it's said that we have a competition to see who can grow the most facial hair..haha :)

other than that, life is honestly good. the UK is a beautiful place and i honestly urge everyone to come visit. it's a bit of home..

i'll post more pictures and 100thandMay updates soon!

i heart you guys!

evan :)